Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Honey.. This mix and the pics..<3



This just reminds me of you...




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Monday, April 27, 2009

Is it worth it?

Why do we invest in other people? In the end, is it really worth it? Or a re we playing ourselves for fools!

I have this huge trust issue, so when you tell me something my bad habit is to believe the opposite or turn it into something negative. I am so aware of this and also know why I do it. But it's not so easy to change the inside of my head. Nevertheless is it not effecting you as much as myself. So no worries there.

I work hard...




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Paulo Coelho solidarity tees from MNG

Loving it!
http://paulocoheloblog.com

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Saturday Night..

Lii Milla wrote me this poem and posted it on my facebook;

Yellow Power

Annicken Liland Bryde,
Full of grace, full of pride.
Cruisin' around Oslo,
She's Queen 'coz I SAY so!

Beggin' for a lifeline,
Your time's up, done the crime,
Messin' with the best, lest,
You'll Die like the rest!

Don't mess with her, stress her,
Your end's nigh; don't test her!
She'll chase: "help!" you bellow,
She's the one, 'coz she's Yellow!

She's Yellow Power!



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Monday, April 20, 2009

Honey

This is an old tune from 1999.. LOVE IT!


It's about all the memories and the good times. But like we all know it's the present that counts not the past. I do sometimes get stuck in the past, more so when it comes to relationship. Like every lady I had my share of bad experiences and sometimes that causes issues in my present ones. Because my trust in men aren't the best because of the things you say and what you really do, doesn't always add up. So I'm expecting nothing really. That's maybe wrong of me, but i don't know any other way. How can I know what's going on inside your head.

But for the sake of it - I do believe that this is for real....




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Thursday, April 16, 2009

Do you believe in faith?

Is it my destiny to make people smile? Who's gonna then make me smile? What about all the grumpy faces I meet on my way. It's sometimes hard being the positive one, when things never goes my way. Like my mom told me, in our family we're just not lucky.

So if someone have any advice or something, post a comment..



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Why?

This time I really regret a little what I did or what Siw made me do. I can't blame her and I did know what the answer were gonna be. So I'm withdrawing!

I don't get these signs, but I do believe in you when you say the things you say. But I'm somewhat retarded when it comes to the relationship part to be honest. It's easier when I'm just me, because then there's only me and no feelings involved. But it's lonely at times being single. Now I don't know what I am anymore, am I in a sort of maybe relationship? Or is it all in my head - HELLO?!?! Do you get this?
I get that you wanna take things slow and that I judge an situation to fast sometimes. But what am I supposed to think? Nevertheless is this something that I actually don't spend that much time thinking about. I do easily forget and just as easy I just change my focus in life.

Maybe I should go back to an carefree life again? But that's not the solution, I just have to stick with it! So wish me luck..




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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Intuition..

Note to myself: Always follow my heart and be me! It's hard sometimes,
but good things will happen! It's all about love and happiness..

This is love


When somethings good it's like I have to fuck it up a little in my own head. Just to have drama in my life. I'm not used to an drama free relationship. There has always been something, a little portion of crazy if you know what I'm talking about..

So this it's a little weird and seems odd to me. But as we all know it's all me. That twists and turns this around to whatever. I always questions people in my head. Never out loud tho, OMG, that's forbidden, haha! Are you real, does the things you say come from your heart or because you want something? My family and friends tell me to chill out. Yeah, that's easy - you know me very well I see! I'm the kind of person that sit still and just wait for things to happen naturally, with my patient wrapped nicely in silk.. No no no no! But I do analyze things quietly in my head when I'm on my own.

But I won't be love shy anymore.. Thinking about you!

My horoscope for the day; "Your volatile, sizzling nature sends you into a funk. Stay away from people or situations that feed the fire. Extra stress is really bad for your complexion and your love life. You'll find the essence of life in the eyes and souls of the people who truly love you."

Love is when you no longer have to question, but know the answer in your heart. It's all about trust and friendship. And the little things that makes you smile, a cute text, a phone call or a card. To throw in a little "I miss you" in between isn't wrong either.

From now I'm giving this my all, there's no return or going back!
"All I want he's all I need. You gotta take me and fly and fly away. Put me for all eternity my love I feel for you. I wanna tell you I, make my sun shine, brighter than a silver screen. All I want is all I want he's all I need. All I want is love, but you, you gotta know that life don't mean that much to me. If I had to live my life without you baby. You had to tell me why love is gonna die."




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Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Back to reality

After Ester it all goes back to the way it were. To be honest it's a little boring at the moment. Life seems to stand completely still and there's no challenges in my days anymore. I'm guessing I'm in a kind of a Cul De Sac and that things get brighter soon. There's no end to my endless optimism as you who knows me know. So I just get back in the game.

I've spent my Easter in Tønsberg with my mom, sister (Annemette) and brother (Petter). We had an Easter with lamb roast and one driving certificate less. All in all it's been a good one. I loved that we were together! My brother and I had a long talk after Saturday night out. We sat in the kitchen and talked about dad, mom and just things. I really miss dad and being home and finding a Christmas card from him that I'd gotten years ago made me remember him like he was before the cancer. I got this image in my head and when I think of him now that's what I see. And it makes me happy, because before I just saw this awful image of a sick man lying in bed. It didn't look like dad at all. He's my hero in so many ways, but still I do feel that I didn't know him.
My brother said that to my sister and I, when we talked about presents and such. But when I think of this, it's somewhat true. But we all have to put in a little afford to get to know people. I do feel like no one really knows the real me. I'm thinking that they have a perception of me, but I'm not sure if it's the real me or not. I'm guessing you whom are reading this knows me better than a lot of friends and family. But I am what you see, except that I'm not as cold as many of you think. Even tho I come forward as a person without feelings that always smile, there's a lot hidden behind my mask. In fact I'm very often sad and feeling lonely. And for me it's hard to bring myself to tell the people in my life this. I don't want to be a burden to anyone and I do feel that that's exactly what I am when I nag about problems. I also knows that this is not always the case, but it's how I feel.

I MISS YOU....




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Saturday, April 11, 2009

Dazzling diversity..

From an earlier relationship I met Edin, we've become good friends over the past years and we always have great fun together. We've experienced to lose our dad's in the last six months. My dad died of cancer on the 1th of October 2008 and his dad died on the 29th of January 2009.
Though both of us has been trough our share of bad experiences we still walk the earth with our head held high. There's no other way to live this life then to stay in this weird world of coincidences.

So tonight I'm going out with my ladies in my hometown, Tønsberg. It'll be absolutely fabulous fantastic! Loving them ladies! It's a reunion for the world to see.. HAHA! So if your in Tønsberg, hit us up...

Happy Easter to all...



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Thursday, April 09, 2009

On the train..


Leaving Oslo once again, this time it’s Easter. Not in a long time has things been so well. Even with my man Marius away in Trysil with his friend Per Arne. They’re sleeping in a trailer kind of looking like car. I’m thinking it’s a Norwegian thing. You have like a rolling home, with all you need. I’ve been on a few of those trips before. It cozy, like intimate. But it can be a little bit too much, because there is no privacy when you’re in these little rolling houses, so it should be with someone you can be with. Like a good friend or the one you can stay in the fox hole with.

Here I am on the train, the sun’s shining outside and it really feels like Easter. Though I’m not going to the mountains, I am hooking up with my ladies on Saturday. I haven’t seen then since February. Before Marius and the fabulous season spring! So I’m thinking we’re doing dinner at Mariann’s house. Of course Synne, Tina and I are hoping Ida-Brit will be there! Nevertheless it’s always so uplifting coming home to the ladies. These are my girls who I know will always be here for me. Like Synne I’ve known since I was 10 years old (or even before that). Ida-Brit I meet when we went to high school, around 14 I guess. Then Mariann and Tina I met last autumn trough Synne. We all just click. The only downside to this is that they all live in Tønsberg while I am in Oslo. So it’s a little bit sad that I can’t see them when I want. Though they’re only a phone call away, it’s still sad. I do feel like I’m missing out on a huge part of their life. But every time we meet it’s like nothing has changed and that’s true friendship!

And I am so looking forward to them meeting the leading man in my life, Marius. They will love him! And then he’ll see me clearer. They say that you can tell what kind of person you are trough your friends. And I do believe that’s true in some way. With me that’s probably not, because I have all these people in my life that are so different. I know that it could be somewhat weird if I’d to have them all together in the same room. It would be a mix of people, but oh so much fun it would be.

I’ve started to follow these shows on MTV, The Hills and The City. I have a thing for reality shows that’s about ”real” lives. Showing how people live, what they do and so on. I sometimes wish that my life was glamorous and filled with sunshine! I don’t complain about how things are though, it's just dreams. We all have them, even though we’re not saying them out loud. One of my dreams is to travel the world with Marius!

Last night Martine and I eat an "goodbye" dinner at Santinos, an Italian restaurant. It was so good! Martine eat Spaghetti with chicken, bacon and tomato sauce and I eat Pizza.




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Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Easter..

From I was a kid Easter has been about candy and eggs. And as I grow older it's all the same, except that now I have to buy my own egg and candy.

I did buy an egg for my man, Marius, filled it up with the things he likes so he'll get sweeter. Because he's worth it I hope. And I do give this my all. It's scary at times, to leave your heart out like this. But it's all about life and love. So I'm doing this for real this time. I can also see now that before has never really been real. So when you're away on your Easter holiday, skiing hanging with your boys send me a few thoughts..

"People are interested in the person who is interested in them.... You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you." -Dale Carnegie.

Happily in love...




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Monday, April 06, 2009

The X factor..

Never before you've started your new life something old dances it's way back and put it all out of balance. There are some people that just keeps coming back in your life, we all call them X's. And there a reason for that.

Maybe it's natural to be friends with your X, what do I know. I haven't had that many serious relationships. But I do know that it's weird when your X wants to rent an apartment from you. And live in the same building as you. The only thing that comes out of that is that he or she wants you back. Even a blind person can "see" that! It's not brain surgery, it's a person still in love with you!
So if you then also are dating another person, you might want to introduce those two to each other, so there won't be any drama.
Never before have I been the jealous one, but when things become "secret" it's an eye opener! I get that it can be hard with these X's, but they're X's for a reason. if you don't wanna hurt them, then stay with them. Don't go out finding a new one, because that person also has feelings. I'm in a sort of situation, where I find myself dating this guy who has a X. And we're on our way into a real relationship. And it's OK to have an X, but I don't need to have that person in my life. And if I so do, I would like it to be done proper, with the "Hi, this is..."





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Thursday, April 02, 2009

Silence - Delerium


Give me release
Witness me
I am outside
Give me peace

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

Passion chokes the flower
Till she cries no more
Possesing all the beauty
Hungry still for more

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

I can't help this loning
Comfort me
I can't hold it all in
If you won't let me

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

All I need.. <3

This is one of my all time favorite songs. All the memories.. And now I'm building new ones, so this is how the story goes...



In and out of love again..




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