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Lady AhY

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Lady AhY

Weekend!

For somewhat reason it's been a while since I've written. I blame summertime. Not that that's a negative thing, it's actually the opposite. I'm in love with this season and it's bringing out happiness and dancing feet!

Working my last Friday at Domus this evening. And after work I'm getting my groove on with Martine and Simen. It's gonna be a great Friday at Blå, Klubb 50% (click the head for website)! But first Martine and I are going to Cafe Sør for drinks.

So for now, it's game on - so bring it!




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Nippon Art

I went to dinner with my friend and neighbour, Eirik, Monday night. And we did Nippon Art an Japanese Restaurant in Oslo, Tordeskioldsgate 8. This is a nice reataurant with a good atmopshere and soothing design. But the one thing that crossed my mind is that I didn't see any Japanese people working there.. A little strange would one might say?
But this restaurant is highly recommended for you all if you're in Oslo! Click the headline to see their homepage.

Thanks for the meal and beers!

What happened with the time?

I'm sitting here at work thinking about what I've done lately and to be honest I'm not so sure. But I've had a lot of fun these days. To sum it up; Lii has been here fora couple of days, then I was with my ladies in Tønsberg last weekend. That weekend just kicked the ass and we had the best time. So the summer's gonna be awesome!

And the summer is really here now, the sun, the tempretaure and the sea! I'm so in love with this season that there's no word for it! If somethings perfection, it's summer and sun! And it's the best time for cruising, everybody is out, looking like they all been sunkissed.

And with these thoughts comes the single life.. The summer is probably best when you're single?




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I just LOVE this bag!

Do you reallly think you're important?

There are some people in this world that believe they're more than others. And this only reflect back on them.. BE HUMBLE!!

I've had a temp position for a year now and there's only positive things to be said. Except, there's this guy who thinks he's the "king" or whatnot. Going around saying stuff to irritate others. Just let me say, please BOY, spare me that attitude. You think you're something you're not. And going around saying that you delete your facebook friends who write blogs. And still say to my face that you read some in mine, OH two faced are you! That's just a wrong! I get that your intention may was to get me to write about you. But I won't budge, to anyone. An if you think you can stand and tell what I can and cannot do, you're wrong again! It's people like you that makes this world insane!
Because you got rejected by one of my colleagues at the Christmas party, you should really feel small! And then after that turn around and say that "it's best we don't do this, because I'm an important person here." When I heard this story I almost died from laughter, so pathetic!
...You know who you are...

Don't believe you're better than others, we're all humans! Remember that!




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Dating..?

It's an new era and it's online. These days we communicate more here on the web than ever before. You can get in touch with people all over the world and it's awesome!

So when you make a new profile on a site, remember to show the best of you. And have in mind that every site it's an potential dating site. Because men and women see opportunities in everything. And won't nudge to try something new. But still there are rules and regulations on these sites.
When you're adding a person you don't know, write a little note. This goes for the communities. But it's the dating services it's about today. So here goes everything, almost. Be honest, write something that catches the eye and the attention. To only compliment a person, it's probably not the best way. Like you have to write something that stands out a little. So that he/she will remember you or think you're interesting.

"DON'T settle on the first guy you go out with. Even if
you like a guy and hit it off after the first date, continue
to date other men until you are in a committed relationship
with a man who truly meets all your needs.

Otherwise, you risk putting all your eggs in one basket (so
to speak) with a guy who may or may not be the one for you...
and maybe even missing the opportunity to meet the man who IS the one."

I'm guessing desperation can be seen online as well, so keep your life busy and don't sit around wait for a guy. If he hasn't decided that he wants to be with you, date other men! And be honest about your intentions towards the person you're seeing! It creates a lot of confusion and stress if you give out mixed signals.
Some guys thinks that they can have their cake and eat it too, but that's wrong. When you're not giving someone all they deserve, they often turn to others. So if you meet someone you really like and been seeing them for a while, tell them and don't think that things will change. There are a lot of guys that's afraid of loosing their "freedom", but it's not like that. If you're with someone that really cares, they always wants the best in life for you. They don't want to control you or tell you what not to do. Even when you're in a relationship, you're still to individuals! It's not important to spend every minute together, but knowing that you've got someone that loves you behind your back. I would never deny a man anything, but I do expect the same back. A relationship aren't a prison, it's a beautiful thing between two people who loves and trust each other.




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Thoughts..

I'm not big on feelings, I'd rather give an impression of not caring. But I do. And when everything comes to an end, I wish I was!

I've been in love, but never really expressed my real feelings to the person it's been about. As some of my friends, they easily tell others how they feel, what they want and so on. I just say "whatever". I have a friend that recently got back together with his girlfriend. They haven't been dating that long, for as me who dated this guy for months now. And I'm really at that point that I may want something out of it. But how do I do this, do I tell him how I feel? The first thing that pops in my mind is to break it off! But my mom gave me this advice about not putting all my eggs out. And I must say that for as long as you're not in a relationship for real, why should you sit around and wait for someone?
And then we analyze, everything, up, down and from side to side. And If there's more room, we'll do it over and over and over.. Why do we destroy ourselves like this?
But every time I decide to confront another person, it always goes wrong. This is one of the reason why I don't plan things. And I miss out on the good ones?

Why is this so hard, what do you girls say to these guys to get them to be with you? I'm missing this gene.. Or maybe I've gotten to independent over the years. That I won't let a person under my skin enough so they'll feel appreciated and loved by me?




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I really want you to really want me, but I really don't know if you can do that?

When you sit alone in your own world and let your mind flow freely, is that when you decide? Decide to be with someone that means something to you?

I recently had a lot of mixed feelings about this subject, it's not easy. Are you supposed to follow your head or your heart? What does really count in the end? Is it the companionship or is it that you can just lie there quietly together without saying a word and just be comfortable?
In the end we all just wants to be accepted for who we are. Be loved, appreciated and feel safe. Nevertheless is this, love, a subject that we all have different views on from time to time. And yes, it does change. I can only speak for myself, but haven't you found yourself thinking, "if it wasn't for you I would want kids, get married and so on."?

I've been speaking to some of my friends lately, for instant my ladies. We are all agreed on that it's not easy trying to sort things out. But we learned along the years that we shouldn't take things to seriously. Just enjoy and make the most out of our lives while were here! So live it up ladies!

And for you whom still sit alone and contemplate about what to do or not to do, just do it! Take a risk of faith and see what good comes out of it. Nothing will change.. There's almost certain that you won't fail and if you do, it's just to get back up and brush it off!




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He's so good!!

When in love..

We all act differently. There's no manual or easy way out of this. For some being single to the bitter end is an solution, but I don't buy that. I'm guessing you who are fooling yourselves and other to believe this in reality miss having someone special. We all pair of because it's what's expected from us. But it's also because we want to. I personally want to have that special someone in my life. Making a life together, sharing experiences and love each other unconditionally!

But what's the difference between being in love and having a crush?




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Baby Emma

Now she's over 3 months and the cutest baby! So smiley and lovely..
The proud parents Monica and Alex is having her baptised this weekend.
Congrats on your lovely family!

This is for..

You who think you know, but in reality are clueless!

I've experienced my share of weirdness trough the years, but there's a few things that I've not been able to wrap my mind around yet. Like men, relationships (both friends and lovers), family and life.
I go day by day, never really plan anything, because of getting used to being stood up I guess. But I'm not bitter, I never regret my decisions or blame others for things going wrong. I raise up, brush it off and start over. I really believe that everything will be alright and that everybody will get what they deserve. But I've never been the one who sit quietly in the shadow of others. I use it all for what it's worth. Because I truly believe that for as long as I've only got myself to take care of everything goes. This isn't egoistic or selfishness, but a way to secure my own life. For the most of my time I've always done as I've wanted and I still do. Because when others can't define a situation or a relationship I don't ow them anything. To get my loyalty you'd have to be honest about your intention. Yes I've made mistakes and I still do, no ones perfect. But for what it's worth it's my life!

I have my friends, my good friends that I trust, love and would give my life for!

How many great loves will you get? Is it like Charlotte from "Sex and the City" states, that we only get two great loves?
I believe that love will come your way at any time, no rules and regulations. You can as easily fall out of love as in it again. And throughout your whole life as well as my own I think we'll fall in love with others even when we're in a relationship. There's no stopping our feelings. But to really be with the one you have invest like you do with friends. It takes time, work and money! Nothing comes easy. It's like wall street or as we have here in Norway, Oslo Børs. Not to be superficial, but just look at your life and you'll see. And still there's no promises that it'll stay that way!

But stay in the game and stay positive!!
It's all love...



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The coloring day.

I've been having these weird dreams lately about people in my life and situations. So when I wake up in the morning I had problems with separating dreams and reality. I've always been the one who's more than mediocre creative, so there's been times when I've believed so much in one thing that I actually thought it has happened. I'm not sure if we can call these little stories white lies or just plain lies. But the thing is that in my head I truly believe them. And I gladly tell them to others without so much as a doubt in my mind. But I've been confronted a few times, by others who remember better.

All day I sit here at work looking at people and surfing the web. To be honest, some of the humans on this planet are freakishly weird and strange. Would you, when you're at the gym go to the reception and ask for lost and found because you didn't remember to bring your own shorts and borrow a sweaty one? NO, no, no, no that's disgusting i tell you! Once and for all, please don't do that, it's not OK! And it's not sanitary!

Is it OK to tell a lie when it benefits the other person?




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Weekend.

Hvilken Britney er du?

Sexy Britney

Du er nok hovedatraksjonen for mange når du er ute på byen eller på fest, du er hot.

Ta quizen her!

Like my name friend Anniken, I also took this quiz. Haha, funny stuff! Here in Norway we have to much time on our hands, so we use our time carefully you see.

In Life As In Art Some Endings Are Bitter Sweet.

Whenever you go that extra mile for that other person, it should be because you really want to. Nevertheless it should be from the heart. Because when you involve another person and something is unclear it’s hard to see what’s what. So just be honest, it’s time for that now!

Somewhat in these situations someone always ends up feeling left out. Because when people say what they say, but never do what they’re supposed to do the doubt and hesitation comes. And with this it all becomes more complicated, tempting to do and say things that are sure to fuck things up! Where do you take the strength from, to ask a person about your relationship? When are you in a relationship? What defines friendship and a relationship? You can go around having sex without being in a relationship, even when it feels like one. The thing that becomes clearer is that when a person doesn’t include you in their life you mean nothing. But why say the things, the sweet things, without really having an intention? This is so frustrating and fucked that not even the smartest nor the prettiest person understands it! So enlighten a lady would you. With stories from your own life, write them here in the comment section and share a little information.

“The Game” is the big thing out here now, almost every man I’ve spoken to read it or is reading it. So it’s time to watch out for those sneaky one. A lot of guys use this to get laid and is that really just what you want? In these situations it can go both ways as well, there’s no guarantee. But if you just follow your gut and intuition it all falls into place. I am without a doubt a gullible and somewhat a little naive lady, because I believe the best of the person I meet. But I also expect the worst out of a person, so it’s a tricky situation for the ones who’s in my life, for sure! And I’m one of those who in reality need a lot of attention to feel appreciated. So in the past I had relationships that I just used for the time being. Yes, that’s harsh and bad, but what am I going to do about it? So I’m always on my feet when I really like someone. It’s like playing a mind game of I-like-you- but-I-pretend-not-too so my heart’s protected.




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Oh..

"When it comes to asking for what you want from your partner, taking the direct approach is best. They'll appreciate it if you don't make them guess what makes you happy."

Is He/She Mr. Right or Mr. Wrong?

When you put your trust in another person, can you really expect something back? Sometimes it all feels like a one-way-street. With only one heart in this..

When you follow your intuition things tend to be as you think. But why are you still here then? It's just hurting, not that you tell the person or ever will. But you're supposed to see it clearly, you whom read people so well! Tired of being the one who always wind up waiting. Things won't be different. It's not that you don't think that you get enough attention, you just don't know what to expect for real! You don't care about how many guys/girls nights out, you just want to be the one. The one that the other person come home to and love. You're done being the one-to-have-fun-with-lady, you're better of alone then. Because to tell you the truth, it's not fun! And you've been trough your share of having-fun-guys/girls. So if that's all you wanted you would be with one of them! You wouldn't found a new one, would you?

You're not in a hurry curry, you just know what you want. And if you're not on the same page, all you got to say is; WHATEVER!

You're not so sure about the other person, but at times it feels like you want to be in a couple. And then things turn, it might just be in your head. But it's not supposed to feel like this! You're starting to loose myself. You just feel alone and forgotten.
I don't like this feeling, it's scary and frightening. So this is where you should end it or ask yourself the question, is he/she really worth my time?
Things and situations gets old real fast at times. When something feels off, it often is! It's called trusting your gut feeling.. So when faith knocks on your door, you'll know it for sure!

I've been watching this Korean TVShow on DVD, Full House.

Here's a clip. It's the sweetest show! I must admit that I even cried a few times! And that's not normal for me! Never have I been good at showing affection and real feelings. And the characters in this show it's a lot like me really. Flaky and searching for answers.




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Honey.. This mix and the pics..<3

This just reminds me of you...




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Is it worth it?

Why do we invest in other people? In the end, is it really worth it? Or a re we playing ourselves for fools!

I have this huge trust issue, so when you tell me something my bad habit is to believe the opposite or turn it into something negative. I am so aware of this and also know why I do it. But it's not so easy to change the inside of my head. Nevertheless is it not effecting you as much as myself. So no worries there.

I work hard...




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Paulo Coelho solidarity tees from MNG

Loving it!
http://paulocoheloblog.com

Saturday Night..

Lii Milla wrote me this poem and posted it on my facebook;

Yellow Power

Annicken Liland Bryde,
Full of grace, full of pride.
Cruisin' around Oslo,
She's Queen 'coz I SAY so!

Beggin' for a lifeline,
Your time's up, done the crime,
Messin' with the best, lest,
You'll Die like the rest!

Don't mess with her, stress her,
Your end's nigh; don't test her!
She'll chase: "help!" you bellow,
She's the one, 'coz she's Yellow!

She's Yellow Power!



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Honey

This is an old tune from 1999.. LOVE IT!


It's about all the memories and the good times. But like we all know it's the present that counts not the past. I do sometimes get stuck in the past, more so when it comes to relationship. Like every lady I had my share of bad experiences and sometimes that causes issues in my present ones. Because my trust in men aren't the best because of the things you say and what you really do, doesn't always add up. So I'm expecting nothing really. That's maybe wrong of me, but i don't know any other way. How can I know what's going on inside your head.

But for the sake of it - I do believe that this is for real....




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Do you believe in faith?

Is it my destiny to make people smile? Who's gonna then make me smile? What about all the grumpy faces I meet on my way. It's sometimes hard being the positive one, when things never goes my way. Like my mom told me, in our family we're just not lucky.

So if someone have any advice or something, post a comment..



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Why?

This time I really regret a little what I did or what Siw made me do. I can't blame her and I did know what the answer were gonna be. So I'm withdrawing!

I don't get these signs, but I do believe in you when you say the things you say. But I'm somewhat retarded when it comes to the relationship part to be honest. It's easier when I'm just me, because then there's only me and no feelings involved. But it's lonely at times being single. Now I don't know what I am anymore, am I in a sort of maybe relationship? Or is it all in my head - HELLO?!?! Do you get this?
I get that you wanna take things slow and that I judge an situation to fast sometimes. But what am I supposed to think? Nevertheless is this something that I actually don't spend that much time thinking about. I do easily forget and just as easy I just change my focus in life.

Maybe I should go back to an carefree life again? But that's not the solution, I just have to stick with it! So wish me luck..




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Intuition..

Note to myself: Always follow my heart and be me! It's hard sometimes,
but good things will happen! It's all about love and happiness..

This is love

When somethings good it's like I have to fuck it up a little in my own head. Just to have drama in my life. I'm not used to an drama free relationship. There has always been something, a little portion of crazy if you know what I'm talking about..

So this it's a little weird and seems odd to me. But as we all know it's all me. That twists and turns this around to whatever. I always questions people in my head. Never out loud tho, OMG, that's forbidden, haha! Are you real, does the things you say come from your heart or because you want something? My family and friends tell me to chill out. Yeah, that's easy - you know me very well I see! I'm the kind of person that sit still and just wait for things to happen naturally, with my patient wrapped nicely in silk.. No no no no! But I do analyze things quietly in my head when I'm on my own.

But I won't be love shy anymore.. Thinking about you!

My horoscope for the day; "Your volatile, sizzling nature sends you into a funk. Stay away from people or situations that feed the fire. Extra stress is really bad for your complexion and your love life. You'll find the essence of life in the eyes and souls of the people who truly love you."

Love is when you no longer have to question, but know the answer in your heart. It's all about trust and friendship. And the little things that makes you smile, a cute text, a phone call or a card. To throw in a little "I miss you" in between isn't wrong either.

From now I'm giving this my all, there's no return or going back!
"All I want he's all I need. You gotta take me and fly and fly away. Put me for all eternity my love I feel for you. I wanna tell you I, make my sun shine, brighter than a silver screen. All I want is all I want he's all I need. All I want is love, but you, you gotta know that life don't mean that much to me. If I had to live my life without you baby. You had to tell me why love is gonna die."




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Back to reality

After Ester it all goes back to the way it were. To be honest it's a little boring at the moment. Life seems to stand completely still and there's no challenges in my days anymore. I'm guessing I'm in a kind of a Cul De Sac and that things get brighter soon. There's no end to my endless optimism as you who knows me know. So I just get back in the game.

I've spent my Easter in Tønsberg with my mom, sister (Annemette) and brother (Petter). We had an Easter with lamb roast and one driving certificate less. All in all it's been a good one. I loved that we were together! My brother and I had a long talk after Saturday night out. We sat in the kitchen and talked about dad, mom and just things. I really miss dad and being home and finding a Christmas card from him that I'd gotten years ago made me remember him like he was before the cancer. I got this image in my head and when I think of him now that's what I see. And it makes me happy, because before I just saw this awful image of a sick man lying in bed. It didn't look like dad at all. He's my hero in so many ways, but still I do feel that I didn't know him.
My brother said that to my sister and I, when we talked about presents and such. But when I think of this, it's somewhat true. But we all have to put in a little afford to get to know people. I do feel like no one really knows the real me. I'm thinking that they have a perception of me, but I'm not sure if it's the real me or not. I'm guessing you whom are reading this knows me better than a lot of friends and family. But I am what you see, except that I'm not as cold as many of you think. Even tho I come forward as a person without feelings that always smile, there's a lot hidden behind my mask. In fact I'm very often sad and feeling lonely. And for me it's hard to bring myself to tell the people in my life this. I don't want to be a burden to anyone and I do feel that that's exactly what I am when I nag about problems. I also knows that this is not always the case, but it's how I feel.

I MISS YOU....




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Dazzling diversity..

From an earlier relationship I met Edin, we've become good friends over the past years and we always have great fun together. We've experienced to lose our dad's in the last six months. My dad died of cancer on the 1th of October 2008 and his dad died on the 29th of January 2009.
Though both of us has been trough our share of bad experiences we still walk the earth with our head held high. There's no other way to live this life then to stay in this weird world of coincidences.

So tonight I'm going out with my ladies in my hometown, Tønsberg. It'll be absolutely fabulous fantastic! Loving them ladies! It's a reunion for the world to see.. HAHA! So if your in Tønsberg, hit us up...

Happy Easter to all...



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On the train..

Leaving Oslo once again, this time it’s Easter. Not in a long time has things been so well. Even with my man Marius away in Trysil with his friend Per Arne. They’re sleeping in a trailer kind of looking like car. I’m thinking it’s a Norwegian thing. You have like a rolling home, with all you need. I’ve been on a few of those trips before. It cozy, like intimate. But it can be a little bit too much, because there is no privacy when you’re in these little rolling houses, so it should be with someone you can be with. Like a good friend or the one you can stay in the fox hole with.

Here I am on the train, the sun’s shining outside and it really feels like Easter. Though I’m not going to the mountains, I am hooking up with my ladies on Saturday. I haven’t seen then since February. Before Marius and the fabulous season spring! So I’m thinking we’re doing dinner at Mariann’s house. Of course Synne, Tina and I are hoping Ida-Brit will be there! Nevertheless it’s always so uplifting coming home to the ladies. These are my girls who I know will always be here for me. Like Synne I’ve known since I was 10 years old (or even before that). Ida-Brit I meet when we went to high school, around 14 I guess. Then Mariann and Tina I met last autumn trough Synne. We all just click. The only downside to this is that they all live in Tønsberg while I am in Oslo. So it’s a little bit sad that I can’t see them when I want. Though they’re only a phone call away, it’s still sad. I do feel like I’m missing out on a huge part of their life. But every time we meet it’s like nothing has changed and that’s true friendship!

And I am so looking forward to them meeting the leading man in my life, Marius. They will love him! And then he’ll see me clearer. They say that you can tell what kind of person you are trough your friends. And I do believe that’s true in some way. With me that’s probably not, because I have all these people in my life that are so different. I know that it could be somewhat weird if I’d to have them all together in the same room. It would be a mix of people, but oh so much fun it would be.

I’ve started to follow these shows on MTV, The Hills and The City. I have a thing for reality shows that’s about ”real” lives. Showing how people live, what they do and so on. I sometimes wish that my life was glamorous and filled with sunshine! I don’t complain about how things are though, it's just dreams. We all have them, even though we’re not saying them out loud. One of my dreams is to travel the world with Marius!

Last night Martine and I eat an "goodbye" dinner at Santinos, an Italian restaurant. It was so good! Martine eat Spaghetti with chicken, bacon and tomato sauce and I eat Pizza.




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The Oreo Dream @ TGI with Martine Emmy

Easter..

From I was a kid Easter has been about candy and eggs. And as I grow older it's all the same, except that now I have to buy my own egg and candy.

I did buy an egg for my man, Marius, filled it up with the things he likes so he'll get sweeter. Because he's worth it I hope. And I do give this my all. It's scary at times, to leave your heart out like this. But it's all about life and love. So I'm doing this for real this time. I can also see now that before has never really been real. So when you're away on your Easter holiday, skiing hanging with your boys send me a few thoughts..

"People are interested in the person who is interested in them.... You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you." -Dale Carnegie.

Happily in love...




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The X factor..

Never before you've started your new life something old dances it's way back and put it all out of balance. There are some people that just keeps coming back in your life, we all call them X's. And there a reason for that.

Maybe it's natural to be friends with your X, what do I know. I haven't had that many serious relationships. But I do know that it's weird when your X wants to rent an apartment from you. And live in the same building as you. The only thing that comes out of that is that he or she wants you back. Even a blind person can "see" that! It's not brain surgery, it's a person still in love with you!
So if you then also are dating another person, you might want to introduce those two to each other, so there won't be any drama.
Never before have I been the jealous one, but when things become "secret" it's an eye opener! I get that it can be hard with these X's, but they're X's for a reason. if you don't wanna hurt them, then stay with them. Don't go out finding a new one, because that person also has feelings. I'm in a sort of situation, where I find myself dating this guy who has a X. And we're on our way into a real relationship. And it's OK to have an X, but I don't need to have that person in my life. And if I so do, I would like it to be done proper, with the "Hi, this is..."





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Silence - Delerium

Give me release
Witness me
I am outside
Give me peace

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

Passion chokes the flower
Till she cries no more
Possesing all the beauty
Hungry still for more

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

I can't help this loning
Comfort me
I can't hold it all in
If you won't let me

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

All I need.. <3

This is one of my all time favorite songs. All the memories.. And now I'm building new ones, so this is how the story goes...



In and out of love again..




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Beauty or just plain amazing?

When we live in this world, it's easy to forget what's going on with mother nature sometimes. And when you see pictures like this it's straight up amazing that this even exists on our planet!

And these days are good days, like the summer's around the corner and the days are longer. I love that the sun's finally found it's way back on the sky and brighten up my days. Not that my mood is bad these days. How can it be with a man like you by my side Marius? With all the things in this world that goes wrong it's the judging of an situation before you really know whats going on easy sometimes. But oh so wrong to do. If we could remove something this should be one of those things. Don't judge a book by it's cover you know. And this goes for countries as well. So if you think to yourselves that this isn't a country for me or to see. Think again and goo see, experience new things, meet new people. Learn some things, live a little and don't regret the things you didn't do!




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Wintertime turns into summertime..

What do I know? I'll tell you that things aren't always what they seems like. Sometimes you'll be surprised what others say and do. I've been taken this time and it's for real. I've even open myself up or I'm on the way to.

You really amaze me. I'm thinking you are for real because of your actions. I do get it now I guess. And yes, the talk we had this morning brought us closer like you said. I've now open up my heart for you to see and the real me is out. And I must say that this just feels right. No pressure though! And love that you came back in the afternoon and made dinner for us.. I see it clearer now!

This night I'm spending at Blindern, "babysitting", because it is a gathering for the students sport something. So here I am with a OSI Basketball player, Eric Ballester. We just sit here and wait for the people to come home. Nothing happening, so we just chill. And then the hour just went.. So now it's summertime..




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Intimacy

Why is it that we always question others. Isn't trust something that should be there unsaid? It's hard to be honest about how you feel and open your heart completely to another person.

From time to time a lady finds herself thinking and contemplating about life, money, work, love, friends and family, but mainly just life. I can't help but wonder if it's really different this time around. I don't feel different at all. I feel like one of those kids in this ad for an Norwegian website, how to help people with psychological problems. Like, "I'm having troubles, wish we could talk about it."

So as you get I'm having something on my mind. It's all just stirred up at the moment, in my head I'm having all these thoughts and things. And it's difficult to connect with myself. I'm having problems with letting people in under my skin. I'm so afraid that I'll lose someone again. I'm guessing my sorrow and sadness finally is catching up with me. I've had a few bumps in the road over the years, but it's no excuse. Though it could be a explanation on why things are like they are now. With me having intimacy problems. This isn't only in the love matter, but in every matter!

I'm afraid of losing someone that means something to me. I've lost a lot of people in my life who I love and will always do. And there's a lot of things that has been unsaid. I just hope they know how much they mean to me. I know now how afraid I am to lose the people that still are in my life. That I literary "push" them away with intention, so I won't be hurt or sad.
And up in all this I've fallen and this is the best thing.. And he's a good one or..?




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Live it, learn it..

Celebrate good times, come on!

So I thought the spring was here for real, but NAH, the snow came back again! And this weekend when we're gonna set time to summertime. It's wrong, oh so wrong! But I won't cry for that. It probably means that the summer will be even hotter and longer, so I'm optimistic and happy. And focusing on other things, like food and travel. Two of my greatest love in life, except for love itself.




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Change of dress..

It's fucked up, the balance. So it's best to stay away from this challenge. With hesitation I'm withdrawing and playing it cool.

Maybe it's time for some changes in life, mix it up a little again. Maybe this ain't what it is, because it's all in my head. Get back control a little. Nevertheless enough it's enough and here's when I say hold up! So where it's easy for others it's maybe hard for me. Letting people in under my skin and see the real me it's not easy. I admire my friend Lena for this, just opening herself as a book for everyone to see. I'm better with the jokes and letting you believe that you know me. And when things gets to serious I just withdraw and disappear. It's not nothing I do on purpose, it just happens.
A little ambivalent some would say..




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Love..

We all fall sometimes. But when you fall in love it's different. You lose control when you wish you had it.

So when you finally, after everything do fall in love with someone that falls back in love with you, keep them close. Let them know how you feel. There's a lot of things left unsaid between people, because of the insecurities and the "I'm-afraid-of". But maybe it's just like ripping of an band aid, quick and stinging? So what if you've never taken a shot at love? What have you really missed out on? Heartbreaks, lonely nights, wondering what the other person are doing, jealousy and anger are some. But if you turn it around you've missed out on the jumping heartbeats, smiling when you get a text or when you think of that person, cake, love, happiness, intimacy and the good feeling of loving someone. No it's not a bad thing this thing we call love, it's just a bit tricky to figure out. And in the end you just want to be with someone that makes you laugh..




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GG

Human Trafficking!

I woke up this morning, turned on the TV and came over a Dr. Phil show. It was about human trafficking and it made my stomach turn! Damn these people, it's so fucked up! Who can someone sell a child for money and sex? How is this possible?

This is something that's going on your own country peoples. And these men can be your neighbors or someone you know! THIS IS JUST SO WRONG!! How can someone do this? What if it was your own child. How would that make you feel? I can't find words to describe how disgusting and sick this make me feel. But it's not making it better to criminalize the victims here. They don't choose this life. It's forced on them. These children are runaways, looking for a better life or been "promised" the world! Please don't fall for that! The grass isn't always greener on the other side. I know that life's hard and unfair some times!
Take this in and put the people behind trafficking in JAIL!!!

"Make your life a hit, don't wait for your life to make the hit". Rev. RUN




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Drink drankety drunk..

I woke up early this morning after an night out with Siw at John's. We thought it was the place to be on an empty Friday at SIRKUS. After I was there with Marius and his hockey buddies, Manglerud Star last Sunday. They had their last game this season and celebrated that they're in the elite series. And they're good!

I must say to you ladies who wonder where all the guys are, they're at John's! I didn't know this as I haven't been there as much. To be honest it's an "hidden-secret". And we had a blast! Siw even got to make out with a marine! This was a great one girl! Though I missed my man there, he's away at Geilo skiing and whatnot with Per Arne. So I get this weekend to hook it up with my other man Edo Ra! It's been a while since we last got our drank on, so tonight we're on!

And I must say, that after feeling blue. Right down sad and missing my dad, feeling like there's no one here for me. I've opened up to my friends and myself, being more honest about how I really feel. And I've realized that it's OK to not smile. I had to been told that I can be myself and that others appreciate it. It's hard to see that some times. To see that I matter to others. I like to be the one that's here for other people, so in the mix it's easy to forget myself and my own feelings. But I'm guessing being here in my own shell is good for me, connecting with my feelings and love myself. And with this wisdom comes knowledge.
So prepared for the new and improved me!!




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Here again..

I can't believe that I feel that I'm back here again. I thought it was different this time around. Where did I go wrong or am I wrong?

Never before you open your heart and soul to a person you probably think to yourself, why? But we do this because we believe in love and want to be loved. The thing we forget in the mix is to love ourselves. So why is this so freaking hard?
And just when you get one thing in your head faith come knocking on your door. In my case, the phone and then the door. Sometimes I judge an situation or a person to fast. In this I'm thinking I might did that, because you aren't a bad one. You're actually one of the good guys! And I'm so happy to have you in my life. I know that having you isn't something that I should take for granted. And be sure that I don't!

Nevertheless it's weekend again and this time around it's dancing time...





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I'm having a hard time...

When things get tough it's easy to see who's here and who's not. Like for me it takes pretty much for me to tell the truth about how I'm really feeling on the inside. For you who think you know, let me just say - YOU DON'T!

This sounds really fucked up, but it's because on my inside I am! For all of you who think that because a person smiles, they have to be happy. No, it's a mask, like the answer we all give to the question, how are you? Oh, I'm good. If you really care for someone, you know that if that person give that answer every time, somethings up! And if you don't care - just shut up. Don't ask or even give them the intention that you do. Because it hurts even more, the feeling that someone pretend to care how you feel.

And for the time being things should be better, because of the sun and with spring around the corner. But in reality I think it's all just shit! Because in the end you only got yourself and I'm seeing this clearer every day..




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New week..

To kick of week 12 with!

Some things..

So this is it, is it over now? What will you do when I'm not around anymore? Is that when the cats come out to play? Sometimes I wish that I didn't care, but just went on with my life like there's nothing else to it. Like I did before.

I miss the days of not caring, just fly away with the wind. The life I lived when I was in Thailand. But it's seems like it never has happened. It's eight years ago now, man! I just want to sell everything and leave, live the life I'm supposed to under the sun with the smiling people. So come on, lets do this for real. No regrets or u turns, just take a leap of faith! I believe that we'll do good, because it's you and me. No fucking doubts, just take the sun and go with it! There's no whatever, I do care and you know that. So don't jerk me around. I'm serious, for once in my life I'm actually sure that this is whats right.

I'm sick of the maybe-we're-gonna-do-this, I want action, fireworks and our dreams to come true! So here I am, catch me if you can and if you can't, set me free...

I don't belong here, so lift your wings and experience the world with me!




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Why..

I wish for things to work out, just get in to place and be. I'm not good with closeness. I'm so afraid of being left out in the cold. Like now, when I'm sitting here alone thinking about the fact that I'm lonely. Yes, I have friends, family etc. But there's still something missing. A person that wants to stop and smell the roses with me. Where's there no doubts, questions and wondering about what the hell is going on.

Man, I fucked this up royally! And for what? Why try to fix something that's not broken? Shouldn't I know this by now, that the question section just fucks it all up! So now it's all shifted, like the air is lifted in some way we're drifted. And when did I get so unsure or is it my intuition that's looking out for me.

Do you ever feel lonely?

Still waiting and I'm starting to see that we, and when I say we I mean us ladies, always wind up waiting.. I'm guessing it's time to do something, change something and get on with the living!

I'm sitting in my apartment this Saturday night and watching Sex And The City and still I LOVE it!!

Who'll be here to catch me when I fall?




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When the night turns to day...

"I've been waiting for you like a girl!"
Is this how it is, does the girls always wait? You guys should really get your ass out of your face if you think that we always wait for you.

Yes we do wait, but not forever. We won't just sit here and not take control. The thing is, if you really want to keep your lady happy and satisfied, don't leave her hanging! Because that's when we shift focus. Our minds play tricks on us and if we are alone long enough we only see what we see. So I say just get out there and play the field, don't let anything stop you and don't spend your time waiting for something that might happen. Lately things has come back, like different incidents and situations. Yes, I've found out that nothing really hasn't change, I'm the same. So maybe it's time to do something about this, to change the outcome. Or should I patiently wait and see what's up?

Yesterday I was out with Angie, we danced, drank and had a blast. Then I got on the sms and that's when it went wrong. After 15 sms and an search for Marre I found him at last. We danced, made out and I met some from his hockey team. It was when we walked home things turned. Because I can't shut up, I'm to nosy, damn! Wish I sometimes had the control, but I lost it now. When I opened the "box"! I got a few answer that I didn't like I remember, but still it can be that I remember wrong because I have an tendency to remember negative things. But I can't bring myself to ask again. So now I'm withdrawing back into my own space. And you know where to find me! It ain't that hard. But I felt my heart break a little. I'm not so good at saying what I really mean, because I like to have an backup plan. So there it is, my truth and me! Though I remember that it's only me in your life now. I cannot bring myself to ask if it's me. And when the night shifts to day it all gets another color. So I'm sticking, call it childish or whatever, I don't care anymore. That's what I'm saying to myself anyway. So believe what you want.

There's nothing a lady wouldn't do for her man if she loves him enough. And if a man likes a lady enough there's nothing stopping him from being with here. So when you hear otherwise, you know what's coming. I do believe in love and that we all get to experience being loved. But you still have to open yourself for this to happening. You have to be vulnerable and let that person in. This isn't easy if your me. No no no!

Maybe it's all a fairytale, like one day I'll wake up and see that it didn't happen. That it's all a dream. How do you get it all?

I just wanna leave everything behind, sell and go see the world! So maybe this is what's having it all means. Not being tied down to anything or anyone. Are we really made for relationships or is it that we just pursue it because everybody does it? Are we happy when we are a twosome? Here comes the question, deal with it! I shouldn't have open my mouth, but I do this to see the real you! Nevertheless it is the real me you still have left to see. I'm not sure if anyone has seen the real me when I think about it. Maybe it's not meant to be shown. Or maybe you all who read see the real me. I don't know how you see me, in fact I don't know how anybody sees me...




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A bit...

Ben Franklin once said, "In this world, nothing is certain but death and taxes."
Life is not a race. Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over!!

Often I hear that I'm weird, but in a good way. I'm not really sure what that means, but I'm guessing it means that I'm different. Are we labeled? Why is it that we often thrive after recognition from others? I must say that in the light of the day things and situations often change. And with the moon as well, we people change. It's like there's someone pushing us over or into a path that we normally wouldn't take. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

I wish for you all to get a little bit of an insight in what's going on and maybe tell me how it's around the world. Because I've seen that there are readers from all around the world. Hello to you all! Wish you well and happiness!

So when this is said I'm back on the theme of love again. not because I'm so good at it, but because it's whats important to me. As for me to know my heritage and background. Yes, it's a little bit tricky knowing the truth when you're adopted from the other side of the world. But I still think about this. I have friends and a man whom are adopted, as well as my sister. But it isn't everybody that let this play a roll in their life. Some accept that they're in another country and others spend their life looking for answers. For the parents this can be hard, I know, but it's nothing personal. I'm thinking that you should be supportive and learn about theirs heritage together with them. This might create an closer bond between you and your children. This goes for biological children as well, it should be mandatory to teach your kids about their heritage. In others cultures they teach you everything about where you're from, how to cook, raise children, be proud and how to treat others with respect. Here in the Scandinavia some of this seems lost in translation.

When it comes to love its all just a blur. Whats right seems wrong and whats wrong seems right. And whether you're a man or a woman it's hard to find someone to stay in the foxhole with. But when you've finally found the one you could see yourself with it's not just easy. You have to work for it, put in time and effort for the other person. But still remember to don't lose yourself in the mix. It often happen without you even noticing it. Suddenly you change into a pod! Be aware and keep your eyes open for another "relationsmare". And watch out for the freaky Friday men, you never know where or when they appear!



"Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."




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Sunshine

Finally it's here, spring and the sun! Loving this, hoping it'll stay like this until summertime. It can't go back now when it's this good.

So with spring comes fling or is it that the fling fits to all seasons? I'm asking you all around the world because I'm curious about how you look at this season. Nevertheless what you think about "flinging". Is it OK to chat with others online when you're in a relationship or do you look at that as being unfaithful?

I'm not the jealous kind, but be honest and take the consequences like a man! I don't accept dishonesty and backstabbing. If you got something to say, say it to my face. FYI this is not an attempt to attach any of you, it's just me and my pms'ing. And it's not pretty at all. But it's a thing we ladies got trough when it's 1-2weeks until our menstruation. So just bare with us, it doesn't last for more than a couple of days. And this is the time for you guys to give your lady an extra little something. It doesn't has to be big...
It's all about love...




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Spring

For about five months I've been waiting for the sunshine. Not that I don't like snow, it's all the clothes that we have to wear. So when the air suddenly changes and the light's back on the sky I'm happier and more open to what's coming to me.

Though the last days has been kind of stressful, because of different things like money, work and negativity in some people. It's cool and we're on the right track of life. I've also learned that guys don't care about nail polish and especially black. Not that that's important, but hey it's a news flash for some.

But for the time being I'm happy. Though I read somewhere that when all comes to all, you can only trust yourself. So when I sit here at Blindern and wait for the spring I eat...




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Coulda, woulda, shoulda...

How is it that we women let a man control our lives? Just when you thought you brought back your independence another person takes it away. Nevertheless does it get easier along the way.

When you're young it's all just fun and games. But when the years go, you get more responsibility and things to take into consider. Never before you suddenly find yourself in a cul de sac, your life just make a 360 and swoosh you're back to square one again.
Not that every man is an asshole, most men aren't. But sometimes you meet a guy that takes the optimism away from you. Makes you unsure and set your self esteem to zero! So getting back in the game can be a little difficult at times.

It's Sunday and my man is playing hockey, Manglerud Star against Furuset in Furuset Ice hall. It's play off to the Elite series. So GO MS!! I should have been at the game this evening, but I'm broke. So I follow the game online, like a true sport jock! Next Sunday is the last match and it's home in Manglerud Ice hall against Kongsvinger at 5pm. It's a go see!
And on TV every Sunday night at 6pm you'll see Americas Best Dance Crew Season 1 at MTV - OH SO GOOD!

But as I've been told that the men wants their ladies to stay the same as the day they met them. Because that is the person they fell for, not as some ladies who wants their man to be someone else. But if you manage to just chill, enjoy and it all falls into place. You can't change a man! Look around and think about your friends, you love them for who they are, not for who you want them to be! This is how it should be!




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Love...

It's hard this life and if that's not enough we have to concur this thing we call love. We all look for it and when we've found it we complain. Ain't there no end to this story?

Nevertheless I have girlfriends who really wants their boyfriends to be more like they want to. But why are you together with someone you wanna change? That isn't right, is it? Or is it that you change a person or change into a person. It's not that you should want to do this, but yes there are situations where you would love the other person to do it a little different.

But why is it so hard to tell them what you want? The insecurity is now a fact. From my point of view I can see how things are with others, but when it comes to my own life it's hard. Is it that we pay for our mistakes in the next relationships? We ladies have our own way seeing what's what in this world. But we want you to see and get what we want without telling you. I get that this can be disturbing and unclear. But just give us a hint, about what's going on. Do the small romantic stuff, surprise us, send cute texts, take us out on dates and let us know that we mean something.

If you're out for fun, be honest about.

But I throw in the towel now, it's late and tomorrow it's a new day and I have an audition for Ragga Team Norway...

XoxoX




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The game...

I've been following The L World on TV3 the last Mondays, but when I got home yesterday there was no L World, but Sex and The City instead.

It's been a long time since I saw SATC! And I must say - I've forgotten how much I miss that show. So now I'm once again addicted to SATC. It's good for us ladies that we have that show. It helps a bit, seeing that there are others out there with the same issues (yes I know it's a TV-show) that me and my ladies got. Though in my case there's not so much issues as my own fault probably.

I've got this thing with thinking to much and it's not narrowed down to just one thing, it's everything! Man sometimes my brain just hurts from all the thinking. But as long as I've been only me, it's been cool (almost). But I still do think a lot and some might say unnecessary. Wherever your heart is where you'll find your treasure!

So this game peoples, what's up with this? I've never really been a good player. Do I have to follow the rules, are there rules?
And why isn't there a manual? Can someone please enlighten me, and tell me these rules?




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I do...

I do miss you, even though I don't express my feelings. But just to show you that I'm not heartless. I'm gonna tell you all how it is..

Honestly I feel lonely. There's something missing in my life. Like having someone that asks me if I'm alright. Taking the time to really show me that they care. Not that I don't believe that no one does. But there's so much that I want to talk about. If I dared I would let my guard fall. If you had the time, I would tell you how I really feel inside. My heart hurts and I'm sad. It's hard to admit this, but it's the truth. But it's hard for me to trust people. Not that you are not trustworthy, but I have a hard time opening myself to others! So now I'm in a bad place and I just want this to go away. I wish that I could just pick up the phone and call you and tell you this. But it's not that easy. What if you don't care? Why is it hard for me to understand if you're for real?

I'm thinking sometimes if it's all me. Because I'm flaky and all over the place. Never have I felt like I had a home or belonged anywhere. But now I got these feelings for you and I'm afraid to tell you. Because I'm scared that you don't want the same. Even though I believe you do.. I just want you to get this. That it's things inside me that I need to talk about. I have a side of myself that just a few of you've seen.
So even though I always smile, I'm not happy. Very often I'm sad, but as I think of this as a sign of weakness I never show this side to you or anyone for that matter. So when I say I don't care I often do. I see it clearly now, this complicated side some of you have mentioned before. But I wish for you to get this. Let me be a part of your life and take a part in mine. So this is why I easily move on without looking back. I don't let myself get to attached to anything. So when I do I often pretend like I don't care. And I've become a master in not letting anyone in! And this hurts now! It's not that I don't want to, It's that I don't believe you want to.. And I know that's wrong, but my mind's set that way.

So this is why I don't believe... Because no one has yet figured out my code.. Or is it that I've never let anyone close enough?

It hurts when someone you love die - so to all of you who lost someone close to you, my thoughts go to you!




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There's no going back..

I've been shaking this Saturday at JUMP. Man, it's making me happy, just dancing. The energy and everything is crazy!

With the instructors from JUMP studio and some others we danced for 3,5 hours! Loving it, my thighs hurt a bit, but it's all good! This was my peek this week! Next weekend there's an audition for Ragga Team Norway, I might be there..

Back in my crib, clean, fresh and ready for new adventures!

So tell me why I'm losing it now. Not the ideal situation to be in. It's easy done, so the excuse should be somewhat worth it. Why is this hard suddenly? In my mind there's about hundreds different things going on all the time. Like my Osteopath says, I have to let things go. But that isn't easy I tell you! I've always been bad at letting things go. Because in my life things has changed all the time. I get that it's a part of life, but why isn't there something steady? Is it that I've missed out or just don't remember?

But hey, I got a man - right? One who'll travel the world with me and experience new things.
I think that the reason for my whimsicalness is that I got to much spare time. So I probably have to put myself in action. And that's what I'm doing with this Ragga thing. I've missed dancing so much - and it's clearer now that I'm back! And it helps with my stress..

Tomorrow Manglerud Star has their second qualification match against Comet at 5pm. So if you don't have any plans for your Sunday, go see this match at Manglerud Ice hall.




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Like nothing's changed..

I'm raising my white flag this time. So real, this is the time you'll feel it! Nevertheless again when I believed in something good. Or let me say, opened my heart to whatever. I'm finding myself in the same place with different surroundings..

I'm totally lost in space and this game isn't for me, so I quit. Just fuck it! Is it really worth it all in the end? Yes I'm ambivalent, that's my signature! But deal with it and be honest.
So tomorrow I'm gonna shake it all away at Ragga Boon 2009!

Be real - keep shakin' what your mama gave yah!



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Self esteem..

Kick off, get the weekend shaking!


Whether you are single or in a relationship we women have a tendency to analyze things. Why didn't he, what's he thinking or why did he say that? Either way we're never really satisfied.. This can create problems and unnecessary stress in your life. So why do we throw ourselves out in this "game"? Is it all just a "game"?
Honestly I'm sick and tired of playing games. I get that it's exciting with mystery, but when I finally found someone I really like (and it doesn't happen often) I go for it. Though I at times come out as an "ice" lady I'm not! The thing is that I try to protect myself from getting hurt. Does that ever really work?
The guard is on it's way down, but it takes time.. I'm like one step forward, 20 steps back... But I did a huge thing yesterday, when I showed up at the Hockey match. So put a star in the book! <3




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I'm weird like that..

Why is it so easy to change opinions, lifestyles, clothes, house, lovers, friends.. etc. ? And in the mix - do you loose yourself?

Personally I'm color changing, like the chameleon. I easily adapt, but I have a little bit of a problem sticking with it. My focus is not always here. Sometimes I just move on without thinking about it. Maybe it's because I'm feeling insecure and low self-esteemed in that particular moment or setting.

"Take care of your health by eating well and exercising. Find
your spiritual path. See a therapist to work through unresolved
issues, if necessary. Do the things you love - reading, dancing,
writing, watching movies, traveling around the world ...
Connect with friends. Learn all you can. Always be open to
growth, be it intellectual, spiritual or emotional. And listen
to your heart's desire, your calling ... and honor it."

I'm an independent lady that wants to be taken by storm. And yes I've been trough my share of bad relationships. But it takes two to tango. Sometimes we have to look inside ourselves to see and get what's really going on.
With me it's like I don't want to admit that I got feelings. I would be comfortable just being a shell. But it's not like that at all! I'm vulnerable, needs attention and love just like you. But I'm used to playing it hard, staying inside the box when it comes to love. I want to be humble, soft and be able to show my real feelings. Do you get it? Is this to much to ask for? I know that not everybody can read minds, but read this!

And for you Hockey fans, Manglerud Star made the qualification rounds, so tonight's the first match at their home arena against Furuset. So if you don't know what to do tonight, go to Manlgerud ice hall at Plogveien 22B, 0681 Oslo/Norway. It starts at 6.30pm, but they sell tickets from 5pm.

MS GO, MS GO, GO GO GO - YEAH!!!

I'm in the storm now - Superwoman is on!



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Are you for real?

In my search for honesty and love I've become somewhat a bit naive maybe.. But I think that's a good thing, because I can be kind of harsh sometimes. So Until you prove me otherwise I got you.

There's rules in this game called life that we have to follow. But don't you ever get sick and tired of this game. Yes, it's exciting and all that, but when you find someone to lay in the foxhole with, keep your dick in your pants!




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Sunshine!

From here i sit it looks like spring. The sun's out and the sky is almost blue. And with spring comes fling and love.

I've spend my weekend at my moms in Tønsberg. Left Oslo Friday and came back yesterday. Friday night was dedicated to mom, she feels a little lonely some times and i get that! And the Saturday was for my TT Ladies. But Tina couldn't, because she had her son. But Ida-Brit, Siri, Mariann And I gathered in Mariann's crib and got our wine on. So when we arrived at Himmel & Hav we met Synne. So we were almost everybody. And the night was a success!

And as for my star, he's still here.. Somewhere..




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Baby Emma..

This is the beautiful little babe Emma who saw the light yesterday, 22th of February 2009 at 8pm. So sweet and congratulations to Alex & Monica! Looking forward to seeing her grow into a lady!

And for the man in my life, Manglerud Star qualified for the GET-liga, Norwegian elite series for hockey. So come on MS - win these matches.
You put a smile on my face Marius...

Have to fill up with some food, so I'll manage trough the day here at Blindern..




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Is this what you want..?

I'm thinking this is a movie you should give a closer look. Especially you guys. As my male coworkers say, "I've waited my whole life for this movie, what more is there to ask for?" So easy...

Back to my male colleagues, one of them said to Lena the other day that he didn't like blogging. He actually said; "I know Annicken's blogging, but I don't like blogs, because they write about politics and stuff they don't know anything about". Sounds really intelligent to say something like that, huh? I'm guessing maybe he hasn't read to many blogs. And his perception of blogging might be a little wrong?

I've never been one who's been thinking about what others think or say about me. But now I'm opening the floor to you. Tell me what you think! Leave a comment or just say hello, to give an insight in what's on your minds..

I've been told that I think to much. Is that a bad thing - yes it looks like that. Because it's creating stress in my stomach and that's not ideal for me. Marius said to me that I should try not thinking about anything, but my question is, HOW?

It's Friday and only 5 hours till my Tønsberg weekend. My plans for this evening is to chill out with my mom and enjoy ourselves! As for tomorrow we're gonna celebrate Mariann with her 28th, HURRAY!




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Everyday struggle..

Life does take me by surprise some times. It's like there's someone taking control and moving me around like a puppet doll. Do this, say so, don 't eat that and smile!

Not that my life is being controlled by any means. It's just that I have an tendency to be a shape shifter, like the chameleon. I have a lot of friends that are really different from me. But that isn't something I have on my "yes-list". I always admire people for the individuality they bring to the table. And I would never ask of another person to change in some way. If I don't like a person, I rather not spend any of my time with them. You can't like everybody you meet.

But this isn't about the people I don't like, but the ones I do! I have a special one, that means a lot to me and that I let under my skin. And like I said before, I'm not so comfortable with that really. Letting my guard down is something I haven't done in years. I'll admit that every time I so much as think about it, my organs turns themselves and cry! So this is not something that comes easy to me, no no no no!
It's like my everyday struggle. For some this is nothing, just a piece in the pond. But for me, this mask is almost like my best friend. For all my life I've worn it, from I woke up till I go to bed at night. I Wonder sometimes if my friends knows the real me. Or just a perception of what I am?

So maybe I have to open up more, is that the conclusion in this? Or is it that I don't trust anyone enough to really let them in?
So now you can wonder or you can choose or you can still just give a shit!

Tomorrow I'm going home to my mom, chill out and spend some time with my hero! And Saturday will bring the TT ladies back in business once again. It's been too long! Mariann has her birthday and there's a party on, so we do our asses clean and fresh!
Love y'all!!!




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For what it's worth...

I've been given the green light, though in reality the green light is really red? Is it so?

I'm taken like i wrote earlier, so before I write about people here I have to tell them. So I promised only positive things, but I'm not so sure about that Sugar. depends on what you're giving me! But for now it's only positive things to say about you, Mr. So say hello to your little friends!
It'll come more about him later.......




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Taken by storm..

Back in my seat, I'm unusually comfortable like never before. But some small things still fucks with my balance. But this feeling is good and exciting. So I'm hoping for this to last.

This known feeling, not so often noticed in my life before it's called love. Therefor the jitters, heart pounding and nervous like feelings. I must say that this is the best! I'm certain of my heart and I always try to follow it. Yes, I've written a few bad things about you men. But I might have to take some of it back. Because of recent incidents. That has taken me by storm for as far as it goes right now!

To be a little bold I'll admit that you've gotten under my skin. And that I might in some way maybe will do or say some rather weird things. And the feeling I've got inside myself in all of this is so good. I'm filled with happiness and a sense of completeness that I've not felt in years! But I'm still a little confused.. And why am I that? I'm thinking that it could have something to do with me not really being sure of whats going on. But it's going the right way.. So if it's ain't broke, don't try to fix it.. But I would appreciate a little guidance, so I know that I'm on the right track!

When I lose control over me, that's when it gets interesting.. So stay tuned...




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Beauty - Is It In The Eye Of The Beholder?

I've read trough many articles that state different things about this subject. I'm guessing that it has to do with us being humans, and we seldom has the same opinions if it's not really obvious.

Like a pretty face is always a pretty face. But Beauty can come from the inside. It always does. If you take a look around and see the people walking around you. There are beautiful faces, but some changes when you speak with them. Their soul shines trough if it's a good person. Often I've spoken to a person that I think is incredible beautiful, but when he/she talks, it's not the same image anymore. Sometimes it's taken away or the person suddenly shines in front of you. The thing I'm saying is that a person with a good soul, is always beautiful no matter what! Because you see the good in their eyes from their soul! In the end it's not so much what other thinks about your significant other, but how you two are together! It's easy being carried away when you hear your friends opinion. But the only thing they should be worried about is, does he/she makes you happy?

I've been trough my share of bad relationships and still kept a few of them in my life afterwards. That's not good for either of you. I can only speak for myself, but when you've had deep feelings for a person, they're always gonna have a special place in your heart. I'm not the best at relationships, but I still know what I want in a man! The things I look for is the feeling of being complete and loved for all that I'm worth. That's to much to demand, but it's not really. This isn't a demand, but something that should be no matter what. Of course is the fit important. It has to be a person you want to spend your time with. An someone who's worth the time. So that in the end, you know that they would go trough fire for you!

I'm from a good home, with a marriage that would have lasted their lives if it wouldn't have been for my dad dieing from cancer. They've had been together for almost 40 years. Been trough their share of difficulties, like me when I grew up, stubborn and not easy to live with. So for me it's kind of hard to live up to the standards or finding someone who does.. And my mom says to me that I think about this to much. But for me family values are important. Show the people in your life that you appreciate them! With the small things..

So tell me what you think of this..




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Something that makes you smile a little...

I'm a Letterman fan as well!




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Come Out And Play Wherever You Are..

This was my Tuesday night fun..


Dakota Fanning does an incredible role in this movie. If you haven't seen it, you should. The young actress is also out with a movie called, The Secret Life Of Bees, with an all star cast!


So here's a few things you can do if you just want to chill. Put on a movie and shut out the world. Just leave it all behind for a couple of hours and be just you. Yes, it can be enjoyed with others as well. But sometimes you need a night by yourself in your own little world.




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A new side

So I've become one of them who starts my sentence with, my....says..blablabla..
And that's not a good thing I would say. So, SNAP, I'm out of it!

I'm thinking about what I'm going to do with my life. Why I'm here and can I make a change?
Wetter I can or can't it's more the journey to the answer than the answer straight out that interests me. And again with the thinking. My brain's maybe on overload. Nah, that's not possible. But I've set my brain on summertime! So sunshine, come on, I'm ready now!

But first, here's a few winter pics from my album; Even though these pictures are almost 4 years old it still seems like yesterday.. I took them on a trip to Hemsedal with Christine and her colleagues from Color Line in 2005!




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